“Are you sure you want to do this?” is the question that was posed
before I came into this lifetime and chose
the path I would walk so that I would truly know
it is possible to navigate the deep and the dark while keeping in tow
love and light and come out on the other side
filled with joy and gratitude for the ride.
Oh, don’t think for a minute that I loved it all
or that I thought it was one big masquerade ball.
Only on reflection have I been able to see
that my path was purposeful, at least for me.
And only on reflection am I able in wonderment to look back
and see how each piece was not randomly picked from a sack
but rather miraculously crafted and honed with care
to get me to my destination where
I could stand back and say,
“I made it! What a great day!”
So many times there was fear in my heart
that I might not be able to do what I had planned from the start
but I just kept going, and I can’t even tell you why,
for there were many days when all I did was cry.
“I just want to go home,” I said more times than I can count
as the sorrow and grief did mount.
I looked around at the violence in the world I saw
and it broke my heart and left me raw
and I wondered how it could possibly be
and at the same time I knew it was some reflection of me.
For 37 years I was committed to only one thing -
bringing myself through the darkness and out of the sting
and proving to myself and anyone who cared
that it could be done, as through my experience I shared.
4/14/2012 © Carolyn Sommers